Showing posts from October, 2017

One month

Being away from home.

20th October 2017.

Life's getting busy, still I wanted to note down this special date.

I have officially lived in the UK for a month. I appreciate the good and the bad in the past. Prior to everything, I wonder how things will go, how is it going to be? But now, I have adapted the environment, the people, but still, not the weather though. I worry about things a little bit too much.

I pretty much have expanded my comfort zone without realizing it. I applied for this university, which is not from my local university's partnership list, I have talked to people about it, wandered around in education fairs, negotiate with agents etc. These things made me grow, and they make me the person I am now.

I wanted to create more good memories in Hull, and during my last year of university and in the UK. I have created a checklist of where-to-go(s), what-to-eat and hopefully I am able to tick them off by the end of this term.

I have ticked off a few things from my list…

I am not always happy

And I have accepted it.

Happiness is such a broad range and deep topic to talk about. Even from the level of the happiness can be distinguished based on the perspective or the EQ level of different people. Some people might be happy about the little things, such as food, dog videos etc. However, when it comes to others, life long companionship or an achievement of a long term goal etc.

The problem that I come to realize is, from the years of unhappiness that I have been through, I wanted to be happy, more than I am actually happy. It actually takes time to digest this statement, like what I did. The pressure that I gave myself in the past, without even being aware of it, is very stressful. Not only I am forcing myself to be happy, I have also escaped the fact that I am sad, but the issues that I am facing are not solved either.

When I seek for other people's advice, they will give me general answers such as "Don't think too much" or "Don't think about it&quo…